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turning point. 2011.

2011-12-30T06:07:00.000-08:00

Since 2011 is coming to an end i guess it's sensible to sum up this year in a post. (and since some ppl are quite active in blogging recently)

2011...

I guess it's a year of stepping out of comfort zones, drifting and making friends, growing up and learning abt myself.

Stepping out of comfort zone.

One of the things that i avoided throughout my pri school and secondary school life. I have always tried to be in my tiny 'bubble' previously, trying to do what i am familiar with and what i know best but never try to do something out of the blue and i will be uncomfortable with.

In poly i did a lot of stuff that i never thought i will do. stepping in unfamiliar areas and 'exploring' around. Stuffs that the old me wouldnt do.

Drifting and making friends

I guess that is just part and parcel of life. Making friends and losing friends. but i really made a lot of good friends in secondary school that i dont want to lose. But due to busy schedule and timings i cannot catch up with friends! ): and slowly drifted apart. Although we talked occasionally but the feelings are different alr. )): i made a lot of friends in poly and when i mean a lot is like almost the whole lsct! HAHAHAHA. I kinda dont like it though /: I am more of those that i will rather have a few close friends with you can talk heart to heart with than having tons of hi-bye friends. BUT I MADE SOME REALLY NICE ONES~ amelia linyuan sac~ something abt them that is different. :D but just to say that i wish to really not drift apart with all of you guys from cckss and also these few close friends.

life gets complicated as you grow up. Not because it is tougher, but people become more and more complicated. Things isn't as simple as it seems before. Most people get close with you with motives and not genuine.

Learning abt myself

HAHAHAHA. something i still havent master yet but slowly as the years past i know more abt myself. What i want in life(okay maybe not really i dont really know abt this yet) but clearer of some prinicples in life i want to follow. I guess this is something everyone will go thru every year.~
Parents gave me more freedom this year and i feel less suffocated~ kinda grateful that they did that so that at least now i have a 'life' and can live it! But still unclear abt some stuffs that i wished could be sorted out.
Hopefully in the next year i could sort out most of my stuff and live life to the fullest!
2012 shall be the year with no regrets and still WORK HARD PLAY HARD~

shall end of with this nice quote thingy i found somewhere which i forgot but it is totally not related to this blogpost. BUT WHO CARES~

It’s the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it hits you, I mean really hits you, all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder.
What if for some reason things don’t work out? How are you possibly going to live without them?
Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for, now has the power to break your heart. Someone you used to never hangout with, now owns most of your time. Someone that you thought you’d never love, owns your entire heart. Someone you once lived without, you now wish to hold on forever.

p/s ANYONE WHO READS THIS, JUST WANNA SAY THAT YOU MEANT SOMETHING TO ME AND THANK YOU FOR INVADING MY LIFE~ (this is not a sacarsm or anything) <3 yaaaa~

2011-11-27T09:26:00.000-08:00

Speechless.

2011-10-31T06:51:00.001-07:00

I thought i could do this on my own. Apparently, I cant.

Contemplation

2011-08-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

Exams are just round the corner and here i am, trying my best to fit every damn thing into my brain and hope to just regugitate out every thing that i remembered. Life isnt so easy and i thought it would be honestly. I really love what i'm studying right now, all the things about biology and our body really still strikes a chord within me. but somehow, i just cant remember all the facts and squeeze it in my brain. It was my decision to make this step, and come over to poly and i never regretted one tiny bit. but it is time for me to end it here? It is as though that i dont belong here.

I treasure every moment here-- friends, lecturers, tutors, seniors and random schoolmates. It is like a big happy family and everyone is guiding you along, helping you as much as they could.

should i just end everything here and go over to jc? I know it sucks but that's sg in a whole. You cant survive in sg by what you want it to be, but what the government what you to be.

I can really say that i never been so happy since before secondary school as sec school life is like falling apart. I've gone through it but at a huge cost. Do i want to do something to hurt myself again?

I wished someone could help me make a decision.

I set fire to the rain,

watched it pour as I touched your face.

well, it burned while I cried 'cause I heard it screming out your name, your name.

longg.

2011-05-25T05:36:00.000-07:00

it's been so long since i last posted a blog post. and i kinda missed typing out my feelings.

work is hectic. and i dont even know how am i supposed to cope with all of these now. who made the rule that every work needs education. argh.

I feel inferior of myself and nothing i do is good enough for that critic inside me. and the others you had to rub it in somehow.

i force myself not to shed a tear in front of everyone while my heart keeps bleeding inside. why cant i just say it out. idk. maybe i'm just so used to it that i feel weird to even talk about it. i thought all these would change but they didnt.

last 6months of slacking and boredom could very well had been the better days of my life. And the best one was on my birthday, where i saw everyone in their happy state and i enjoyed every single moment w them. will i ever have another time that this would happen. or will i even survive thru all these to get to next year's.

i'm not perfect,but i keep trying to be..

but it's not possible.

2011-04-19T16:44:00.000-07:00

those who look the most cheerful and happy in front of people, are the one with the darkest secret.

2011-03-22T11:16:00.001-07:00

an addiction is hard to stop.

LOST.

2011-03-17T07:28:00.001-07:00

sometimes i really think whether am i part of this world.

hello again!

2011-02-09T08:02:00.000-08:00

its been super long since i last posted but somehow i realise that ppl have been reading my blog *ahem mandy* so i post for you la.

life has been quite an ass since i cant decide where i want to go. since i ended up with going to poly i must as well live with it. since the world is ending in 2012. srsly, i cant see myself anywhere after studies and i dont know what am i going to do?

medicine? something i wanted for years but now i'm just holding myself back to reconsider. am i really sure? and where am i going to further my studies? nus, ntu, sim, smu or overseas? the journey to nowhere is scary and i need the light at the end of the road to guide me. but apparently the light has stopped working and i hope it's temporary.

so did i made the right choice?

2010-08-31T07:19:00.000-07:00

pri school friends are much more simple minded and innocent than secondary school friends. why cant ppl be liddat.

hello

2010-08-16T06:29:00.000-07:00

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you...

Is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do (Wonder what you do)
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying

I love you

time.

2010-08-06T09:55:00.000-07:00

not much time left.

RANDOMMMMM.

2010-07-30T20:17:00.000-07:00

i was determined to find this in my cupboard and i FOUND IT!!!

Lalala

2010-06-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

从前从前, 有个人爱你很久.

END OF THE WORLD.

2010-05-30T10:29:00.000-07:00

THIS GUY. (on the left)

BECAME THIS GUY....

...

WTH?!?!??!! the world is coming to an end.

ps. the guy is aaron johnson.

BUUURRRRNNNNNN

2010-05-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

i really should take a break soon before i snap.

EVIDENCE.

You Are 100% Burned Out

You are extremely burned out.

You work too hard, and you're not getting the results you deserve.

It's time for a life change, as soon as you can manage it.

You're giving away most of your energy to something you don't even enjoy.

Are You Burned Out?

The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

BIAN TAI YY

2010-05-17T07:38:00.001-07:00

SEE HOW COCKROACH JIAN CHIANG POLLUTE YY MIND. THATS WHY COCKCROACH SHOULD BE ELMINATED FROM THE WORLD.

LALALLALALALA

2010-05-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

LALALALA. since mye is over. me and qh decided to play a game! actually is i want one la hor.

WHAT IS 10 COUNTRIES THAT I WANT TO GO :D
1. UNITED STATES OF AMERICA

decided to list every country instead of cities if not the list will be over 10.

HAWAII.

very nice and tropical place. look super fun la. most importantly, the beach look damn nice. ps. our MYE english p2 come out that 2 islands are in HAWAII. yay.
div>

NEWYORK.

fashion paradise. love to see all the sky scraper and the 85350934628745982309 of shops. and i want to see those office worker rushing to go to work and all the big advertisements on the buildings.

LOS ANGELES

.

2. AUSTRIA- VIENNA

love their statues all those and famous for music la. want to feel like when you walk down the street and listen to people playing piano, violin etc. if you want more detail go QIANHUI'S BLOG CAUSE SHE DELICATED A POST TO ME.

3. GERMANY

i want go see places that WWI took place. and there should be nice la hor.and should have nice chocolate all those la hor. HILTER> woooooooo.

4.UNITED KINGDOM

went london before and it looks really nice. so figured out that other places are also nice so i shall go see see too. :D i want go northern ireland also. go ask them about protestants and catholics thingy.

5. GREECE

mum went with my grandmother so never bring me. but hear that they not used to food. but nice nice statues should be nice la.

6. CARIBBEAN ISLANDS.

beach and wonderful view. damn nice la. and i think mamamia was shot there. the place look super nice.

7. ALASKA

its under US but heck la. i would finish my list if i dont list it in another point. anyway. its so different so i list under another. oh ya. they got a lot of glaciers all those so i think will be cool la. AND GOT SNOW. and i want see Northern Lights; the Aurora Borealis. GREEN LIGHT. and got cert hor.

8. CHINA-HARBIN

i dont know why the english is called harbin when it's actually called 哈尔滨. they got nice ice statue and the main reason why i want go is because... yeah.

9. BRAZIL

just because its damn far from here. and i can take a long long flight. :D and i want see the bull fight also. ahahaha. and its famous for soccer also.

10. Amsterdam

cause they allow red light district and i want see. hahas. they also got a lot of unique shops so should be quite fun :D

basically. i didnt include a lot of countries etc ITALY FRANCE SWISS AUSTRALIA LONDON because QH say cannot repeat. but i really want go la. SO FUNNNNNN. notice that i didnt include like asia countries. IT WAS UNNOTICINGLY. and i went to a lot of them alr. and i didnt include hongkong if not yy will be mad. I WANT TRAVEL LIKE NOW LA. i shall end this post abruptly. :D

p/s I GOING TO SEE QIANHUI AT GENTING. YAYYYYYYYYY.

2010-04-19T05:24:00.000-07:00

hey girl. i know it's tough for you at this time but you'll have to hold and continue your journey. I know we aren't as close anymore but i'm always here to support you. I'll grab your hands and pulled you out of this sinkhole and i know you can do it too without my help. Hang in there.

Love always.

emo days= emo people.

2010-04-16T06:43:00.000-07:00

Have not been posting for 3492759435796 months cause i'm toooo busy. ):

guess the blogging bug crawled out of me.

The speech day coming, preparation for MYE, prelims and O level really reminds me to treasure the time left here.

the next one coming, stepping down of cca.

i can say that i dont hold a major role in CO, just a normal CO members playing her own bland and weird sounding instrument but it really brings back a lot of memories.

CO nite. i know i was bad, not to stay overnight but i think that the nite itself was already enjoyable and fruitful to me. I interacted more with my sec 3 juniors, talking serious crap and nonsense and i know, i'll really miss them. dont really know the sec 2 juniors so i dont really care. yuksing and yushi will make great seniors, cause they are under me at least once. :D

last years' grading exam was really fun. Nice experience with sinmay, struggling on the 2nd piece and finishing it proudly in 2-3 days. Have blisters on my fingers on the day of the exam but at least i have a pass. :D we spent time training like some mad cow with the teacher and taking a trip down to NUS. will miss the times.

lastly, syf. Super enjoyable one with seniors minxuan, deon, pearlyn, yunfang. i like how we do not have the senior and junior thing like the uniform groups and really care for each other. i know they are now divided into different schools and classes but i really want to thank them for teaching me and others. I know we put up our best performance there.

next wed. the last day of our cca. i will surely. TRY to play with my juniors once more. and thank them for the time we have together. must psycho them to be good seniors. dont slack.

other than that. i'm thinking...

how many friends on facebook/msn do i really know

how many good friends do i really have

and do i actually have a best friend.

many would say that i'm really fortunate, to have so many friend supporting me. but to think of it. really. how many of them will listen to me nag. how many of them will accompany me thru my struggles. how many of them really care for me. how many of them really ever considered me as a friend.

and i know other fact of myself. that i'm using jokes and infatuation on people, to distract myself from the inside. and keep myself from thinking of other things. than really how i feel.

and i feel my inner self becoming smaller and smaller.

2010-03-29T06:12:00.001-07:00

lazyness got into me.

but blame this on facebook.

MUMS ARE IRRITATING.

2010-03-10T05:09:00.000-08:00

okay. my mum is like pissing me off since today and i dont bloody know what's her problem. dont have the mood to do ms chen's homework. argh. but must do it soon.

today sports day, raining nothing much to say lor.

I AMMMMM DAMMNNNNNNN BOOOOORRRREEEEEEDDDDDDDDDD.

SOMEONE INSPIRE ME, please.

http://leiivarius.deviantart.com/art/all-you-ll-ever-have-156778482

i'm back!

2010-03-05T05:10:00.000-08:00

LOL. i think i have not blogged for like 2 months plusplusplusplus alr lor. NO motivation to force me to blog. damn it. blame it on homework and more imptly TEST. didnt write anything about camp but i think that everyone can remember it lar. OUR LAST CAMP ): unless someone write a petition about changing prom to camp which i will be happy to agree to it. PROM IS BORING.

talking about petition, can someone volunteer to write a petition to switch chinese teacher with 4/7. i mean that our hmt like linlaoshi but 4/7 hates them while we hate jianglaoshi and they love them. SO EXCHANGE LAR. linlaoshi very good de lor. very fast return all the things. at least she try to let the lessons be more interesting. and most imptly she trust us. UNLIKE THE SENIOR TEACHER. 5 mins and you feel like sleeping. luckily with the help of my desk buddy ms BAOQIANHUI had to entertain me. hahahas.

SIDE TRACKING... today is A level results released. cannot put diplomacy photo out cause too obvious le. aahhaas. his results not bad i think. from deducing of his post. hahahas. okay. i think i'm lame. LALLALALA.

i somehow remembered that i ask huaihui to write the pros and cons of jc to help me decide on my choice.

PROS OF JC:
-uniform! (she wrote that as a con though. uniform easier. no need to think what to wear)
-take 2 years only.
-similar to secondary school. varied subjects.
-easier to get into uni.
-teachers there for you-- motivation to study (constant nagging ensures you are on task)
- BUS FARE/ MRT FARE cheaper. school fees cheaper(economical reasons)

CONS OF JC:
-si bei stress. ( i saw pjc students going home at 8 plus 9 haiis + hell lot of homework)
- school timing standardised( means you have go school everyday+ wake up early+go home late)
- CCA. it is said to develop you in terms of aesthetics.
-GP as complusory subject. hard to EVEN PASS.
- theory based. lack experience than poly.
- have to continue to uni. A level cert no use if work in society. at least a diploma from poly ensure you a higher paying job.
- high dropout rates. cannot cope-go poly- waste 1 year. become 4 year> choosing poly from the start 3 years.

my own PROS AND CONS OF POLY

PROS OF POLY:
-Practical based with allows you to gain experiences before you get into society.
- able to make 2 choices
1. continue to further studies(exemption up to 2 years for certain uni)
2. come out to society to work.
-more in depth into the course you want to take. (more for those who are sure what they want to be in the future)
- dont have to study subjects that you dont want.
-get experiences from attachments programme at year 3.
-graduate with DIPLOMA.
-similar to uni or the society. (lectures)
- dont have to go school everyday. somedays only. scheduled varied. most lectures at afternoon(can wake up at a later time)
-if you choice is what you like, more enthu about the subject-- easier to study.
- can buy computers at a cheaper price. muhahaha.
-many presentations- allow you to be more exposed to how they work in society.

CONS OF POLY:
- GPA score have to be very very very high to get into local uni. e.g 3.9/4
-no teachers to supervise you, no motivation from teachers etc, must be very self disciplined to prevent from lagging behind.
- takes 3 years.
-NO UNIFORM. ):
-BUS/MRT FARE more expensive. adult rates. school fees super ex.
if you have anything more you want add hor. tag then i go add.
-lectures very boring. sleep=die.
-a lot of group work. must find good groupmates to ensure high marks.

if you have anymore points tag and i will add it in, if i have the time. MUAHAHAHA.

i think this is like long enough to repay for not blogging le ba. ahaha.

If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see
Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me.

lol.

2009-12-18T05:02:00.000-08:00

apparently someone(yanyi) has tagged to ask me to blog so i blog lor. paris photos will be up later cause i lazy to go post. ahahas. nvm lar. also dont have others in the photo. anyw, havent touch homework lately cause going overseas. will TRY to chiong later. FYI if you still dont know, ms vanessa resigned= we are so getting screwed next year. so many teachers have left us alr lar. must be the school's salary very low. damn it. cant they give more. so we are going to get a new chemistry teacher... and i think english teacher too. hopefully. i know i'm random but paris is fun :D not really of romantic though. cause go with mum.. so yeah. but dont really see a romantic side of it. saw many ppl kissing though. all locals. super cold there. see something like snow but i dont know whether its snow cause is look like ice kacang in flakes form. no snow shape. and the children on the tour group. damn CUTE. :D justin, gerrald, vera, lionel and valerie. gerrald is damn cute lar. he is like 2 years old then he like to eat raisin. then when i ask him for 1 he will say no in a super cute way and laugh laugh laugh. damn cute. justin is his bro and cute also lar. he got 16 girlfriends(not together at once lar) coming close to beating bonnie's record. and amazingly one of the girlfriend gave him a mug with a heart shape inside with a girl and guy. and she say the girl is her and the guy is justin. OMG. damn cute. vera was the oldest there but still cute. act like a big sis. hahahahs. lionel was friend with justin so something like justin but no girlfriends. ahahahas.which is a good thing lar. valerie was a poor thing cause they all bully her then dont play with her then she have to keep chasing them while crying. ahhhahahas. AND HOR. only children above the age of 2 are cute. BABIES are somehow annoyed. cried for the whole journey back then i cant sleep. damn it. okay. why am i talking about children in this post. but nvm. CUTE MA. jap children are also cute but not as cute as them cause i cant communicate with them. shall end the post here. can tell yy i post alr.

P.S actually wanted to post what hw i have left but i found out i post the hw on one of the previous post and i havent done any of it so i dont have to post again. hahahas.

2009-12-08T08:24:00.000-08:00

BOBO let me hear this song. quite nice lar. i like the lyrics only.ahahhas

TaeYang- Wedding Dress english trans
I would argue
Then you would cry
As youre struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please dont hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, Ive been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, youll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldnt come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that Im alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please dont hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, Ive been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, youll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldnt come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

Ive been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

2009-12-07T08:02:00.000-08:00

this is what fb did to my email.

continue..

2009-11-18T08:28:00.000-08:00

continuing...

justin bieber!!!!! damn hot.

:D he's older than me.

CUTEEEEEEEEE. many people say he look like girl and sound like girl. BUT NOOOOOOOOO. but he sing nice ma.

FROM WIKI:

Justin Drew Bieber (born March 14, 1994) is a Canadian singer. He began his professional career on YouTube, where he was discovered by his future manager, Scooter Braun. Braun flew Bieber to Atlanta, Georgia to consult with Usher and soon signed a record deal with Island.
His debut album My World was released on November 17, 2009.[4] Four successful pre-album singles have been released: "One Time", "One Less Lonely Girl", "Love Me", and "Favorite Girl", which were Top 15 hits on the Canadian Hot 100 and Top 40 hits on the Billboard Hot 100. This accomplishment made Bieber the only artist in Billboard history to have four singles from an album chart in the Top 40 of the Hot 100 before the album's release.

omgomgomg. soo cuuttee.

next topic.

oh yar. blogging havent been working for quite a few days so i cannot blog. SO CANNOT BLAME ME AR. blame blogger ba.

i shall keep this post short. if not this will go on forever...

FINALLY.

2009-11-17T07:53:00.001-08:00

finally bridging is over.
finally i get to sleep.
finally went to class chalet.
finally had japan trip briefing.
finally seen justin bieber video.
finally BLOGGER is working.
finally i can blog.

okay. the above is to show how bored am i and HOW LONG i wanted to blog. not my prob hor. blogger dont want to work. ):

FIRST, lets talking about bridging.
i found out bridging was more tiring than normal school days. i think it is because:
1. it is a whole 1 1/2 hour of lessons together. ( can you imagine 1 1/2 hour of A MATHS TOGETHER. pure torture)
2. i'm sitting in front. cannot yawn, cannot sleep, cannot eat. (even though got drink milo lar.)
3. it is in the holiday? hello. it's for me to sleep de lor.
then, for sure teacher wont end our torture here. how about tons of homework for you to enjoy and remind you of them.

HOMEWORK LIST:

1. CHINESE. yue du bao gao (mind you. i finished my o lvl chinese le hor. =.=)
2. ENGLISH. some weird project, mine is on war. for oral preparation de.
3. GEOGRAPHY. oh god. i forgot what is it.
4. E MATHS. a lot of TYS qns lar. i guess no one is doing it. if i have the time then i'll do.
5. A MATHS. madness. 143 qns!!! whole revision including PLANE GEOM, BINOMIAL, COORDINATE GEOM, the worse things you can find in amths.
+
6. dunman full paper. objective of this is to tell us that our school paper is easy.
+
7. plane geom ws. 5 revision qn. which i think it is enough to kill us.

i think i'll have a great holiday man. and from this i can see which teachers are still in their right frame of mind.

continuing..
not wanting to talk on studies anymore....

CLASS CHALET. ermmm. it kinda suck. not really fun.

pack things and went. took 1 hour plus to reach there. then raining. then VERY PRO DE dihang say know how to lead the way. wth. hai us walk to the place. under the rain.

class guys were very unmanly. wanted to the take upstairs so must well dont stay over. talked to tiny and his dirty mind. and his madly obsession with DOTA. he listen to songs in my ipod with max volume then say still okay not very loud. anyw, i think half of our class guys are deaf though. then he heard numb by linkin park. then he was like OMGOMGOMG is the dota song. i literally went =.= then they suggested that they wanted to go lan shop at 8. crazy ppl. oh yar. they went to check ishraq phone got porn or not. but then ishraq removed his memory stick...

guys were mahjong-ing. joined them for a few rounds. jiefu helped me cause idk how to play. jiefu damn pro de lor. must be dajie not in then jio all friends to play mahjong. then jiefu taught tiny how to play too. SUPER FUNNY. tiny got pong or what. then he will shout and make super big reaction the thing. like he won alr. but havent. Tiny dont know how to see the chinese character for the wan zi. then geoksoon have to type it in his phone. to prevent me from watching. =.=
F.Y.I jiefu ended his affair with mary. is with ginni now.

first round bbq was by dh which the chicken is STILL uncooked after repeatly bbq-ed for 3 times because of complain. in the end still raw. 3/8 ppl came here. guanki helped bbq so at least the food is edible. jiade came here to put butter on the food. hahas.

ohohoh. shirley kept shouting when guys went to the top floor. and nicholas lead geoksoon in. the shirley screamed like nobody business. geoksoon super shocked. then everyone oh hor at geoksoon. hahahs damn funny.

went home with qh and clarissa. we went to shop for food before going back. got my SUBWAY COOKIE. :D yumyum. talked a lot of secrets all those. and talked about our cheenatown trip with yy. speaking of that. sidetrack a little bit.
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went to buy chingay thing with yy and qh. other details not very impt. hahahs. we went to the dessert shop to eat dessert. sat beside yy then beside qh is empty. we kept saying jf was there then give yy leftover food to him. hhhaas. ppl kept looking at us. then we went to the bus. beside qh still empty. then we said jf was sitting there. then a woman came. sat there. THEN WE LAUGHED. i mouthed " jiefu bei ya si le" then we dont know why. say jf went into yy bag. grabbed yy bag and open a small opening. if not jf will die. love the trip. :D

chalet ended liddat. i think i continue the next post next time lar. if not no one want to read liaos.
so lengthy.

is a love with a d

I'm ENGAGED.

2009-11-05T07:29:00.000-08:00

woo~ be jealous ppl.

2009-10-27T07:58:00.000-07:00

get back report book. worse result i can ever get so dont talk to me about it.

chinese o's is coming and i dont know what am i doing. cant keep myself grounded.

IR, i'll wait for you to open and i will jump down from the casino. with chips flying around.

before that i shall take thrilling rides at the universal studios.

i shall plan my bucket list from now.

:D

i fucking hate you. go slit your throat and die.

2009-10-21T00:49:00.000-07:00

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby,
sometimes love just ain't enough.

2009-10-20T05:09:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!

lol. i'm lame. tmr is promotion day i think then we dont have to go to school! (:

anyone who see me dont talk about results. mine suck to the core. makes me depress.

few more days to chinese o level and i still havent finish my mock paper. damn. ct sure find me.

think yy and others coming my house tmr. must chiong finish chinese by hook or by crook. SO SIAN. try doing 6 compos and 6 sets of chinese paper 2 together and you should be feeling how i feel now. waa. thinking of it make my headache like hell alr.

tsk. i think i'm abandoning my blog soon. like got so many eyes looking at it lor. and who knows some weird ppl maybe reading and editing my grammatical errors. i want something like wordpress but i dont like wordpress leh. dont know lar. BLOGGER CHANGE LEH. like allow some posts to be private. then i'll be damn happy alr.

oh yar. i'll post that stupid question mr lau put for physics paper 1. i was practically writing =.= on the paper lar. super dumb answer CAN. and my ss conclusion spend like 3906759672494 effort into doing it. and i dont even get there lor. damn sad LUH. in conclusion i just suck for ss. but i want to be ambassador for singapore leh. MONTHLY SALARY IS 5 FIGURES OKAY. you know what is 5 FIGURES OR NOT. at least 10k. OMG. then still have free lodging and personal bodyguard in case anyone want to assasinate you. *pulls out knife* and still got a mercedes benz WOR. so shiok. then you will have to say like "i'm from singapore. blahblah" then kaching, the 5 figured cheque comes to you. shiok. and i dont think you need study a lot luh. maybe about politics and memorise all the laws and history about singapore. this will be the part i cmi. aiyarh. i just want become cause of the FIVE figure salary lor. and got excuse stay in other country. and meet hot angmoh guys. :D i know i'm thinking too much but fantasizing is not wrong.

i shall go dig out my ss textbook and start studying for my future. 5 figures salary wor. and i shall abandon my chinese mock paper. unless someone is willingly to pay for me to do it. or i have some wonderful career in the future eg. 6 figured salary and i will consider doing it.

amazingly this maybe one of the longest post i ever posted this year. post exams are so fun. can slack like hell. yay!

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

somehow i'm just worried for you.

2009-10-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

When a person’s limit is broken, either she breaks down or she breaks others.I used to break down. But now, I break others.”

2009-10-14T23:05:00.000-07:00

watching toradora for the past few days. SO NICE LUH. going to finish it soon :D

plans to finish in holidays:

1. finish toradora(both series)
2. finish my 32950237584740392750937 la bi xiao xin episodes
3. go k-box
4. go buy clothes all those crap
5. OVERSEAS!
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i think still got a lot. but lazy to put it down. haiis.

going to continue TORADORA! :D

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you

Love, Me."

WOO~ exams are over.

2009-10-13T08:43:00.000-07:00

EXAMS FINISH LE. shall sleep long long from now.

more pictures for everyone :D

from www.deviantart.com

2009-10-02T06:21:00.000-07:00

argh. i think that my bro and my cousin both have gf liaos. wth. UNFAIR.
whatever luh..

1 paper down, 987167352142752 to go. ):

2009-09-27T06:39:00.001-07:00

the thing that i dont want to happen, happened.

we're drifting apart...

definition of love.

2009-09-27T06:37:00.001-07:00

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." -St. Augustine

awww.

2009-09-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

currently mugging for physics test and chem test while i am soooooo tired. mum just pissed me off lor. TSKTSK.

wonder what may happen tmr. will it be like last week?

damn, i must remember to bring dihang's guitar book. keep forgetting. SORRY ):

2009-09-21T04:07:00.000-07:00

i want to kill myself. seriously. and stop asking me why.

2009-09-21T01:48:00.001-07:00

what's my blog for?

2009-09-20T07:16:00.000-07:00

i'm losing focus. guide me back on track pls.

photographs.

2009-09-19T05:15:00.000-07:00

someone complained that my blog have no pictures. so this post will all be on photos. :D

courtesy from http://www.deviantart.com/

quit wasting time.

2009-09-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

dont worry, i'm fine.

2009-09-15T04:50:00.000-07:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?

2009-09-13T06:12:00.000-07:00

i'm trying to cheer you up. when i cant even do it to myself.

2009-09-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

maybe what i thought was right.

i'm not fit to even console you. i nvr been in a relationship so i wont know how hurt you can be. but as i friend, i cant stand by the side. looking at you crushing, crying over an asshole that doesnt even fit to be with you in the first place. two timing or being a girl at the back is nvr the right way in a relationship and it should not even happen to you. you are a nice and cheerful girl, and you shouldnt be like the way you are in now. its not only hurting yourself, you're hurting everyone, those who are thinking of you, who love you(as a friend) including me. seeing you like this and not able to help you really kills me inside. so yeah, promise me, dont do anything stupid and stop crying. i know letting out of your emotions is good but you should know when you should stop. i dont want to see a sad, worn out side of you.

2009-09-08T06:55:00.000-07:00

LOL. i'm back. cause there's nothing to do online. but its fun doing nothing :D

today had a 3 hour long and torturing lesson of amths. it's not as bad as i thought it will as i didnt fall asleep. hmms. maybe is because i slept too much. :x

i should learn to stop using emoticons too often.

ANYWAY, today is blogger's birthday. i think so lar. cause just now i sign in got cake below the blogger sign. AND THE CAKE LOOKS TASTY. yumyum.

but i cant eat alr. eaten too much chocolate today.

looking for jogging buddies. (: ah crap. i did it again.

2009-09-07T04:32:00.000-07:00

ahh. feel like crap now.

idk lar. suddenly de lor. maybe cause:

1) there is tons of hw
2) just random hormones imbalance

Hmm. i think both contribute quite a lot.

SICK again.

2009-09-02T02:30:00.000-07:00

ahh crap. i know i'm sick again lar but who cares.

and i know i shouldnt be blogging but came across this nice quote in underagegirl's blog.

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

i think this guy is extinct.

lyrics marathon.

2009-08-24T05:59:00.000-07:00

It ends tonight.

Your subtleties
They strangle meI can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such distain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight
won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

梁文音 - 最幸福的事

你撑着雨伞借我那次
已经足够我记得一辈子
我懂後来你不是不坚持
爱情本来就没万无一失
泪水离开了你的手指
那不如让它流在这信纸
我想女孩子最贴心的是
让爱的人选结束的方式

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势为挚爱的人
在左边心口保留位置
是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是童话故事
不能够永远依赖着王子
才慢慢认识只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心为难你解释

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势为挚爱的人
在左边心口保留位置
是最幸福的事那一阵子有你
美得不像现实多高兴每一幕
都微笑着静止我最幸福的事
牵着你的日子一段爱从开始
直至分开我们都对彼此诚实最幸福的事
对那片海用力大喊永远的样子想得起的事
那天和你傻笑着认识
是最幸福的事

爱一直存在

那天我扬起帆
想看看未知的海
心里很多话想说说不出来
虽然我脸上看不出来
天空一样蔚蓝
却换了多少云彩
那时的你让我幸福百分百
是否为我等待

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱都在

站在你的门外
我却幸福在徘徊
心里很多话想说说不出来
但我想你一定都明白
时间过的好快
想念却不曾更改
现在的你是否幸福百分百
我应该怎么猜

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱都在

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱都在
爱一直存在

.rawr.

2009-08-23T05:23:00.000-07:00

i'm just posting this random post to say that i keep seeing 8.22 this few days. maybe its reminding me to say the pledge?

i'm going to say loudloud pledge tmr.

this is what i call... NO LIFE.

2009-08-22T04:37:00.000-07:00

Rotting at home today. Slept at 12plus ytd and woke up at 8. Early eh? cause kanna woke up by mum to go eat breakfast. =.=

reached home at 10plus and watch mtv chart attack till 12. felt tired and went back to sleep.
slept from 1 to 5.

hahas. so total i slept for 13 hours. weeeeessss. damn high now. and havent touched on hw. chinese hw are driving me nuts. just cleared ct's hw then back to oweing her again. shucks.

someone intro me something to do can. tsk ):

one day i woke up and found that i'm missing you.

2009-08-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

i really dont know what to blog nowadays.

p/s: i dont need your explanation.

NATIONAL DAY!

2009-08-07T07:44:00.000-07:00

happy advanced birthday to mr/ms/mdm/mrs Singapore(: sorry i'll be gone on your birthday but there will be millions of ppl that will be celebrating for you. Maybe i should just say the pledge at 8.22 in malaysia.

anyway, im glad that the class is getting back together, not as bonded as i thought it would be but it'll get better in time.

p.s life still sucks.

2009-07-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

i could not open myself to anyone.

respect.

2009-07-28T06:55:00.000-07:00

i cant believe i'm saying this but can someone just respect the teachers? firstly it was mr lui. maybe you all think that his lessons are boring or crap, but i can see that he put in a lot of effort into doing all this e.g the time he call us to do out the 3d model to allow us to visualise the diagrams. The styrofoam balls, pick up sticks and the blue tack are not cheap okay. He actually bothers to buy it for us shows that he are concern and trying very hard to make the lessons interesting. but instead, we are making alot of noises, crapping around and try to irritate him. can we like just listen in class one day and really absorb what are they really talking about. mr d. chen and ms goh are also some egs. maybe they are new teachers but doesnt mean their understanding of the subject is lesser than the experienced teacher. Looking at them shouting at us just to get across a message just make me feel bad. Teachers are still our seniors and i think that we should respect them as how we will treat them towards our elderly even though they maybe only few years younger than us. just hope that after this post everyone can just play their part to make the teacher feel more comfortable in our class.

me the past and now?

2009-07-26T08:57:00.000-07:00

i went back to read my past blog. and found a huge change in myself. not only appearance but tone.

in the past, i was using all those derhs, kal, mi and now i prefer to type everything out.

and i was so much more cheerful last time, with all the smileys in my blog until something hit my head.

crap. maybe thats part of growing up. goodbye old jacqueline and i hate you, the new one.

2009-07-23T09:10:00.001-07:00

i think i'm an irritating bitch. dont you?

2009-07-17T06:24:00.000-07:00

xoxo.

2009-07-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

Now I don't wanna lose you,
but I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool
I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
and I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fault
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home when it's late at night
and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed there beside you
where I used to lay

And there's a
Danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't say who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Baby sometimes love-it just ain't enough.

DECODE ALL THIS.

2009-07-07T08:36:00.000-07:00

I’m sorrie if I say anything wrong… u will still come for the appointment, won’t u? Let me fetch you on that day, okie? Only you can help yourself. come on, reply a yes…Vent your thoughts to others please… it’s the only way out. Ease your illusions! let me help…You’ve gotta go for it! Only you… yourself can help yourself… Understanding yourself is most important…

by i believe you. (lowkayhua story)

My darling, are you sure? A small change can make a great difference. I think so, dont you? Dont hesitate! And enjoy every moment with me now... Got any time spare for me..i really hope you do. Everything takes time to accept, i know im impatient. Not only this, would you consider something more than that? Truly, madly, deeply, i really like you....

by cy

Yo! how are you? Out of school alr? U have to learn to grow up man. Act like a man. Really. Eat like a guy! Getting ready in time is impt you know. Asshole. You suck.

by me (i know not creative lar)

PICTURES!!!

2009-07-06T03:18:00.000-07:00

edited. !! video below. weees.

THE PICTURES YOU ALL BEEN WAITING FOR!!!

KKH hospital.

this is how you do the swab test. stick it in your nose.

hippo is sick ):

so is the kangaroo we kidnapped from aussie.

ms heng wee theng the doctor in consultation.

amount of milo and biscuits in ONE DAY.

our mac order. SEE. so pathetic until must use tissue and write.

TADA.

we were choy-ing this thing before we knew that we were h1n1 positive.

1st day. PROOF OF US coming directly from airport. who will bring scarf rite.

WARNING: photos below are taken under the influence of h1n1 and medicine. weetheng sae must take some to liu nian one.

CRAZY PEOPLE!

-------END OF HOSPITAL POST------------------------

CAMP AHA! RIVER VALLEY HIGH SCHOOL ( got go SP and NUS (: (: )

yingyingV for the birth of the sausages

sausage making in SP

look like real commerical sausage rite.

hort park. the tiny guy is calvin.

RIVER VALLEY HIGH. waiting to go NUS. weeeesss.

DIDNT TAKE PHOTO IN NUS! ARGH!

p.s i was wearing 2/4'08 class tee in the hospital sia. SO LOYAL. hahahs.

FUNNY VIDEO. okay lar. its kinda stupid.

I HAD A NO-LIFE HOLIDAY.

2009-06-28T10:37:00.001-07:00

it is like 1 plus and wth am i doing now. CHIONGING MINDMAPS. wow. how fun can life be. to make things worst. i realised like i was worst off that eunice, who had only 8 days of holiday. i thought that will have at least like a week to play and guess what. i was so lucky to get h1n1 and get into the hospital. even though i get to do nothing in the hospital, play with weetheng(HEARTLESS! woo), watch ben 10 every SINGLE dayand mysterious ppl stucking thermometer up your armpits. i guess dihang was rite. I HAD NO LIFE!!! someone call me out OKAY!

p.s ty to all the nurses who tried to satisfy me and weetheng with weird needs (e.g asking for mac, hula hoops) and who put the hospital label on my hand without me knowing. ty to the rgs doctor who thought that we would be negative and in the end positive. and tyty to the doctor who told me i could get out of the PLACE.weeeeessss.. THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU (:

MY 100th post. finally.

2009-06-21T06:53:00.000-07:00

okay. as a lot of you all noe i got H1N1... but who cares. it is not exactly serious as thought of. you just feel cold all those normal fever symptoms lar. and hor. stop blaming and sae those like 'who tell you go melbourne" or 'tell you dont go liaos' MELBOURNE IS FUN AND IT IS ~~WORTH IT.~~

okay. i think that even if i tell you all how fun is it you all also wont care rite. so let's talk about the hospital!!!. i was so FORTUNATE to share the room with my father friend children (also my friend) who went to melbourne with me too. lol. then we kanna together.

WARNING: the hospital is not fun.

why?

- they stuck satay stick like cotton bud up your nose v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v. deep and turn 1 round and take it out. somemore x2 to get the sample. this is the so called swabb test.

2009-06-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

toodles everyone(:

see you all soon.

AHA!

2009-06-02T06:13:00.000-07:00

lol. came back from my day 2 of my science camp. kinda sad when we had to leave. it happens everytime. and most of all i miss
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someone. hahas. :P dont want tell lehhh.

anyway, i'll talk more about someone next time. lets talk about YINGYING!!!. hahas. the sausage lover. anyw, one of our workshop is to make sausage and we are supposed to eat it too lar. we were super excited at first to make the sausage from scratch but then hor... later we cooked every sausage and tried to taste it. although it did not taste as good as normal sausage does, but it still rocks. (: but then after eating the sausage you will find sausages revolting(what i wrote in my reflections) and i seriously dont dare to eat sausage liaos(for now).then we had lunch and it was sausage. OMG lar. then everyone had sausa-phobia. even yingying okay.

lol. i'll talk more next time. go and finish hw. SCHOOL(study) MARATHON TMR!!!!

2009-05-25T06:27:00.000-07:00

i found out i am kinda bad so i deleted that post.

SUPPORT CALVIN.

2009-05-22T20:30:00.000-07:00

okay. can someone go and create a fan club call CFC for calvin cause he joining the ccks idol. hahas. and best thing is... all the teachers know.

first was ms lo. she asked calvin,''ehh.you go join ccks idol ar?"*laughs with her hand crossed and her face there*

then later is mrs tan. then she also laugh. calvin sae mdm koh also go ask lor.... hahahhaaas.

ANYWAY, the audition is going to be at somewhere open. i guess should be at the hall or something.

p.s geography students please do not join calvin's fan club(CFC) if not mr chen will be very sad ): awww.

2009-05-17T06:05:00.000-07:00

i cant believe that they are breaking up, after almost 10 years married. the kids still dont know, i think.

2009-05-07T06:46:00.001-07:00

so going to kill the person who flooded me.

CONFIDENCE is the key?

2009-05-03T07:24:00.000-07:00

do you believe that if you have confidence in anything you will do well in it? i dont think so though. cause everytime if i have confidence in something, i will do like shit in that thing. so i dont believe in confidence anymore. maybe thats why i dont like to take photos. ANYWAY, tmr is chinese oral exam. i dont know how the hell to do it. i cant even pronounce properly now. talk like an angmoh with weird chinese accent. PRAY FOR ME.

p.s going to post the photos after exams. (or when i am free)

2009-04-29T09:52:00.000-07:00

who want to buy books from goody books. it rhymes(: hahas. the story are from Low Kay Hwa and they are super nice lor. last time read i believe you then cried. super nice story. I was wondering if i want to buy the new story, To Forget You so if you want tag me lor. i try to buy in bulk or get offer. then save $$. dont know why super obsessed with money recently.

THANK YOU!

2009-04-29T05:24:00.000-07:00

lol. this is kinda of a thank you post. idk why.
ok, i'm just random.

THANK YOU to the person sitting next to me in chinese tuition. I totally forgot to bring 稿纸 on that day we have the compo exam lar. and then i return him the he was like nvmnvm. then i also say nvmnvm then want return him. in the end i nvr return cause he like keep saeing nvm. lol. good guy. and clever-er than me lar. i like pass the paper 2 then super happy le then he get so high. tsk.

THANK YOU to qianhui who pei me for the last few days. lol. and lending me hw to copy. :x

THANK YOU to yijie, sihan and junzhi who made my day when we tried to ask junzhi whether he break alr or not. super funny post but forgot to save. arghs. yijie was like "yo. ahjun!" then i started laughing like hell. then my mum thought i siao laughing at the computer. miraculously, junzhi replied,"yo. ah jie!". and then continuously, i laughed because of how yijie try to 套话 to see whether he break alr or not. unfortunately, we got the wrong info and junzhi did not break. oops.

THANK YOU to raymond for lending me notes today. so luckily that geog test came out a similar qns he had on the worksheet or something. and i have to say that his handwriting is so much better than mine. but i am so going to get low marks for the test because i missed out a WHOLE policy okay. stupid conservation idk how to say.then i thought that we no need to rite cause its like asking the ways of minimizing deforestation and how to sae conservation. oh crap. that means i lose like a lot of marks liao lor. siyun is super fortunate to have someone to teach lor. tsktsktsk.

ermm. if i left out you. tag me then i try to write lor. see what i can rite.

p/s nicholas is so damn funny on tuesday when i was doing my theory hw. He try to get into the conv by saying he noe piano or something. then raymond ask him what is Bflat then he sae "Bb lor(BB)." lol. then later i ask him what is Asharp then he sae "A hax(#). lol. funny like hell.

2009-04-27T05:30:00.000-07:00

crap. i cant seem to see my blog. omgomgomgomg. if you can see it, sms me yeah. (:

FUNNY. omg.

2009-04-26T07:43:00.001-07:00

i think i will be liddat lar.

8 Signs That You're a Dirty Fighter

Sign 1: When he wants to spend your tax return on a flat-screen TV even though you'd prefer to go to Paris, your response is, "You always get your way!" (Repeat multiple times at top volume until hoarse)

find sign 2 in link.

Sign 3: He jokes that when he imagined his dream girl, she wasn't so messy. To teach him a lesson, you throw the entire contents of his wardrobe on the front lawn. Look who's sloppy now.

Sign 4: Though you've logged lots of hours with his family, you can't remember the last time he spent any quality time with yours. To make your point, you start crying until your partner feels like crap.

Sign 5: When you see him being friendly with a female coworker at a bar, you force him to dissect every word of their exchange back at home (like, "Great to see you. Great to see you? What the hell does that mean?!").

Sign 6: When he doesn't notice your haircut, you vow not to compliment him the next time he makes an effort to dress up. Actually, you'll tell him he looks awful.

Sign 7: While you're spring cleaning and find a shoebox full of his mementos (including pics of exes), you toss it all in the recycling bin without asking him. Oops.

Sign 8: He goes out with the guys and gets home at the crack of dawn. Your retaliation: You go out the very next night wearing your most scandalous dress and tell him not to wait up.

find the cure in http://lifestyle.msn.com/relationships/articletkt.aspx?cp-documentid=19319443&GT1=32023! lol.

i joined nuffnang. lol

2009-04-26T01:05:00.000-07:00

after like 03589307598427837238479 times of nagging by my best/prettiest/favourite/smartest cousin, i finally joined lor. lol. blogged after others next time. not free now. hahas.

2009-04-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

show you a hottie today. lol. from fast and furious. PAUL WALKER. woo. i'm not posting sean michael photo cause his too hot for all of you to resist and is my private collection okay. i scared ppl snatch ar.

face shot. can you imagine that he's alr 35 and got a daughter than is 10 yrs old. omg.

dk what this shot is for. touching the water?

too artistic for me to understand.

hot hot hot. hotter than dihang's sixpack. (:

okay. i think that all of you is salvating in front of the com lor. go watch the movie!! nice and exciting. (:

2009-04-24T01:39:00.000-07:00

before putting yourself in others' shoe, you must take off yours first.

oh crap. i miss you.

2009-04-24T01:32:00.000-07:00

hahas. dont you just like misleading titles? hahhas. aiyar. i miss yuanyuan,yj,mandy(not really) and pris. and all my primary school friends. awww. sec life is like super complicated and you wont know who is really true to you. unlike pri school, all of them dont have any 心机 to be friend with you. arghs.

anyw, i didnt know that syf was so impt to me. cried and cried. omg. thanks for all those who help me and mandy is going to be responsible if i fail my e maths test. haiis.

p.s found a lot of seanmichael photo which cheered me up. weeees.

2009-04-20T08:53:00.000-07:00

JENSON BUTTON IS KINDA HOT. (:wees

and he drives. woo

2009-04-19T06:49:00.000-07:00

i am super fucked up now. arghs.

CO

2009-04-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

i know the atmosphere is getting tense not only co but also others (MYE). read mx and dave post. maybe they are right. idk. but after one rehearsal after another is just as what conductor said. 越弹越烂。we spent a lot of time and effort into CO from the start and why can we just endure for like 3 days more,clinch a gold and feel that our efforts have paid off. It's 3 days before syf from now and i hope that everyone could do our best in co and try to get what we want. REMEMBER TO EAT BANANA TOO BEFORE YOU COME.(:

good luck to all CO members. (: we'll be there for each other.

p.s lol. i really dont feel like wearing that semi transparent shirt on wed. so paisei. hahas.

2009-04-14T07:36:00.000-07:00

The day you were born is the day you'll be dying.

thats cool. (:

CO!

2009-04-13T05:39:00.000-07:00

YAY! this wed got CO practice. weeeeessss.

Secondary School Level
Date : 20-22 April 2009
Time : 9.00 am-6.00 pm
Venue : Singapore Conference Hall

Junior College/Centralised Institute (JC/CI) Level
Date : 6 May 2009
Time : 9.00 am-6.00 pm
Venue : Singapore Conference Hall

The duration of the choice piece should not exceed 8 minutes.

PARTICIPANTS
3.1 Each school is required to submit a list of no less than 24 and no more than 80 participants. All participants must be current students of the school. They are required to be in full school uniform or their respective Chinese Orchestra costumes. 10% of the final mark awarded will be deducted for Chinese Orchestras that field less than 24 or more than 80 participants. All participants, including percussionists, are required to remain on stage for the duration of the performances.

3.2 Schools which field participants that are not current students of the school will be disqualified and any award received will be revoked.

3.3 Each school will ballot for a performance number at the briefing cum balloting session in March 2009 (for the Secondary School Level) and April 2009 (for the JC/CI Level). Schools are required to adhere to the reporting time corresponding with the performance number. Schools that do not adhere to the reporting time will have 5% of the final awarded mark deducted.

JUDGING CRITERIA
4.1 The judging criteria are as follows:
50% - Technique
Articulation
Dynamics
Intonation
Rhythm
Tone

50% - Musicianship
Balance
Blend
Expression
Interpretation
Phrasing
Style
The decision of the panel of adjudicators is final and no appeal will be entertained.

The Central Judging provides the opportunity for Chinese orchestras to benchmark their performance standards. There is no pre-determined number of gold, silver or bronze awards. (really?!!?:o)Participating Chinese orchestras will be awarded certificates based on their performances as follows:
• Gold 80% and above
• Silver 70% to 79%
• Bronze 60% to 69%
• Certificate of Participation 59% and below
5.2 To recognise the outstanding achievement of Chinese orchestras that have attained high performance standards, schools that obtain a final mark of 85% and above will receive the Gold award (with Honours).

link of the criteria and those
http://www.singaporeyouthfestival.sg/images/SYF%202009%20Central%20Judging%20-%20Chinese%20Orchestras.pdf

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-04-02T07:44:00.000-07:00

wow. looks like a lot of people is celebrating their birthday in this month. i thought very few people will be celebrating with me!

5th APRIL- ME!(:, joanne(even though i dont really know here but i noe she play suona "very good"

8th APRIL- BOBO. super bu yaolian still call me buy specific birthday present for her.

14 APRIL-kenny 21st birthday. didnt know he so old le.HAIIS. hope he marry soon. (: and FYI his party is for adults only. arghs.

anyway, dont you think cassadee pope hair is cool like hell. i want her hair!

homecoming the song is so damn nice. ms tham should have played that for compo writing. love it. (:

see.................... her hair. ahhhhhhhhh. maybe i should continue keeping my hair short. (:

2009-03-31T05:52:00.000-07:00

5 more DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY. actually not very excited lar. cause 15 yrs old= NAFA more diff. ): aww.

AND HOR, i not from band lar. suddenly like a lot of people ask me,"why you nvr go cca?" then i sae i not from band. then when i today talk to qianhui then i sae i not from band then i am from CO then people super shocked. sian. then they sae i got band face and i got the english look. wth. seriously lar, i where got look like angmoh de. i think i look more of the chinese side. arghs. it's just weird.

today mr lau said he was from hwachong then i am eunice laugh like hell. HE, hwachong. wth. no link. actually got lehh. he look a little... ermm nvm. hhas. just now show my mum the class photo then i sae,"there(i point) this one is my form teacher." then she said mr lau look very chao lao and then his fa xian very high, like balding liddat. hahas.

finally the class tee thingy going to settle liaos. (:

btw advanced HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!

what about now.

2009-03-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

i feel like going to another country to study, and start everything afresh and run away from all the suckers. friends drifting further from each other. may death do us part.

...

2009-03-25T07:12:00.000-07:00

read eunice previous post and agree. she's changing and so does everyone including me. In the past, i would not be like that, so crazy about things and tired of living and studies easily. but its coming to me now.. i want back my old me even though i thought that i was less cheerful in the past but i'm just cheerful in the outside. my mind dun allow me to show my feelings and my heart dun trust anyone enough to let my feelings out. its bottling in me and i feel so cramped in me.

read yanyi blog. and she thought CO was good. maybe it was because you didnt hear it before. to me, it was the worst i ever heard and we just have ourself to blame. train harder maybe or just joint down or look at conductor would be better.

CO or studies?

2009-03-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

almost every performing arts member are saying 'syf is coming' ever since the year started and it is really near now. less then one month. then teachers start to psycho us that the exams are coming and its really really near.
the first paper is... yes. duh. chinese. the one that i have no confidence in even passing and not even to say o lvl for this year. it will be on 24 april and every CO member should noe that...

SYF is on 22.

so the school is trying to tell me to study my MYE in 2 days. impossible. and then it is not the end yet... SYF showcase on the 30.

OH CRAP.

i found the 2nd sucker. yeah. everyone around me should know who this person is cause i have been complaining since today. she really pissed me off like hell ok. dun wan to sae about her. it really makes me dizzy imagining her in that asshole attitude. and she made me vulgar.

ANYWAY, jy for SYF(:

(:

2009-03-16T06:43:00.000-07:00

i think i'll still in love with him...

i'm seriously going to use back my old phone. it'll remind me of sean michael (:

results?

2009-03-15T07:07:00.000-07:00

WARNING: NEVER TALK TO ME ABOUT MY CA RESULTS FROM NOW. you noe why. whoever reminds me i will 对你不客气.

when you say nothing at all.

2009-03-13T21:30:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you could light up the dark
Try is a may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing
The smile on your face let's me no that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fal
l You say it best, when you say nothing at all

All day long I could hear people talking about
But when you hold me near you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine
The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face let's me know when you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all.

OMG. wishes do come true.

2009-03-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

i just found out that i posted on feb and wished jiade to find a girlfriend soon and.... he really did. hmmmmmmmmms. then i think i'll wish myself to find one too. (: hahas. back to the point.

idk why but i am damn easily pissed today. i just seem to kan everyone bu shuang and feel like scolding $*&%($*% in their face. maybe is the weather or i'm just pissed by their actions.

ANYWAYANYWAY, i am going out with yuanyuan tmr. i'm so excited. (: she's so cutteeeeeeeeeee.

YUANYUAN here i come. whhhhhhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooooooooosssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhh.

mixed feelings.

2009-02-27T05:17:00.000-08:00

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall

You say it best,

when you say nothing at all

posting photos day. (: weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-02-27T04:24:00.000-08:00

PHOTO DAY!!!

ivp opening thingy. lots of talks talks and talks.
teachers talking.

hungry people. the long queue is the queue for food. haiyoo. we didnt even get to eat except for the cake.

IN THE BUS!

bukit timah trips. the scenery. (:woo.

HANG DI! untoenailed person. (NOW)

EUNICE BABE. she likes pokemon cards too. (:

AND......

some photos taken eons ago with sihan(yuanyuan), priscilla and yijie(:

sorry for the unglam side of yijie. hahas. (:

woo. finally.

p/s mr chen is cute. (:

OMG.

2009-02-26T05:41:00.000-08:00

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i'm so going to use back my old phone cause..... sean michael is using that phone. crap. i should have use that phone. (:

am i thinking too much or....

2009-02-21T06:01:00.000-08:00

AM I THINKING TOO MUCH OR
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OUR CLASS BLOG IS GETTING TO MUCH ATTENTION.

our class blog is famous after 352546576487453 days lor. everyone on msn was like, " eh. your class blog is damn funny!" then my reaction was like wth lar. even mr chen(:D)reads our class blog. (: i think he sae sth like " someone's class blog rote history repeats itself. i actually want to tag and say something de" hahas damn funny lar. anyw, mr lau tagged on board too. (: still say what whee-uh-whee. so orbit lor. haiyo.

chionging geog proj with beebian now. must do well cause mr chen is cute. (: i noe no link lar.

p/s. i think beebian is nicer then vivian.

i love you,yuanyuan.

2009-02-16T06:34:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU, yuanyuan.
(F.Y.I yuanyuan is sihan,i'm tuantuan)

i miss her lar. she's so damn cute. unlike some other people. anyw, all those projects and tests are driving me crazy. its all your fault. I WISH TO GO BACK TO PRIMARY 6!!!(excluding the tons of worksheets) our class is like supersupersuper much better than secondary classes. in primary school, everyone's friendship with you is so true and pure unlike secondary school you dont know what motive they have under you. i miss those times when we get to know each other very well and joke with the people around you. also those times when you forgot to do your homework and your teacher wants you to flash your answer from the projector. your good friend beside you will always lend a helping hand and correction tape his/her name and write as yours then showing it on the screen.

then, we also have the times we shared lockers. we practically tried to dump every single thing into it unless the teacher sae cannot and leave ample space for the person sharing with you. Going back to primary school brings back many unforgettable memories...

psss. i'm writing this cause i noe yuanyuan will be reading this. (:

p/s. FIND A DAY AND GO BACK TO PRIMARY SCHOOL LEHHHHH.

2009-02-16T06:33:00.000-08:00

my brother is a total butt-hole and idiot.